Dieting with obstacles

This past week was Thanksgiving. From the look of this picture it is not far from what was being served at my Thanksgiving dinner. That was one obstacle, but wait let me back up to the many other obstacles that I had to face this past week.

For some strange reason, I am a very sickly person. Hmmm, I wonder if it has anything to do with being so overweight? Well, it probably does, but doggone it, I am trying to take the weight off and get healthier. Easier said than done.

I have been battling serious infections that usually require outpatient surgery for quite awhile now, probably close to two years. Well, this was another one of those times. I desperately needed to be seen by a doctor, but had waited so long that I ended up being admitted to the hospital because the pain was unbearable and the infection required IV antibiotics. Well, while this sounds like problem solved I got violently sick from the antibiotics that I could barely keep anything down on Wednesday.

Thursday was Thanksgiving and while I felt like eating, there was the obstacle of the meal. I did fine with that, I ate what I wanted but I had saved my weekly points for just that purpose.

Friday, Saturday and Sunday, well need I say more? It's the weekend and I always seem to overeat on the weekends and this one was no different.

Oh, one more obstacle to contend with this past week as well. I am not allowed to go to the gym. So, you may be asking yourself what is the big deal, just walk at the mall or ride a bike at the gym, or do exercise videos. Well my size does not allow me to do these things comfortably, nor does the infection. I am too sick right now to even want to exercise. The funny thing is that I miss it. I loved being able to go to my water classes and just being able to go to the pool and "play" around.

It seems that with so many obstacles against me, I would give up like I always seem to do. I have noticed that I can usually make it with my diets for about 25-30 pounds and then I give up.

So in a sense that is another obstacle.

Now that I have complained about all the reasons why I can't do it, I need to own up to it. I need to quit whining about it and do it.

It is still incredibly hard changing the way my mind works, learning new behaviors and attitudes but it will happen, I know that it will.

I am at the point where I am losing enough weight that people are starting to notice, I can't see it though. Losing this much weight seems like a huge accomplishment for someone who doesn't have much to lose but for people of my size, we all know that this is like a skinny person losing five pounds, it is just not a big deal yet. I am not knocking what I have done, it is not an easy task, but I just can't see it yet.

I got on the scales this week, feeling humiliated, but nonetheless needing to get weighed and I am happy to say that I lost 2 1/2 pounds this week.

This is good for getting me back on track, so until next time, I hope to lose nothing but weight and gain nothing but knowledge.