Once again I have had a good week. I am beginning week 17 of my lifestyle change and it seems to be getting easier.
I have been thinking about what my present struggles are and I have two concerns.
The first one is my eating habits. While it seems I must be doing something right and yes, I am;
I am still having problems with overeating at times. Example 1 (and keep in mind it is usually on weekends) I went to dinner last Friday night and I was so hungry I could hardly see straight, I had planned on going out to dinner that wasn't my problem, the problem was the hunger. I had chips and salsa and when I go to dinner at this place, I can always control how much I eat, but I was shoveling in the chips and then when my dinner came, I ate all of it even though I was full from all the chips. I did not fare well that evening, I got sick and there was a waste of dinner. I did the same thing on Sunday, I ate too much. This time I ate until I was uncomfortable but not sick. I know that this is a problem and I have to change this. I am still trying to figure out how.
My second concern, is that I bought some new clothes and am buying them in smaller sizes even though I don't feel comfortable doing it. I cannot see myself any thinner, even though I can look at pictures and see it, I can't get it in my head that one day I will be wearing smaller clothes. I am down a size for the most part, I am sort of in that in-between stage, where the one size fits and is a little loose but the next size smaller while it fits, it is a little snug.
I wonder if I will ever see myself as thin. I have always been this size all my adult life and I still think of myself as being the weight I was when I started.
So, I have lost a total of 39 pounds. It has only been 16 weeks. I feel like in is in my grasp to get to the 50 pound mark by the end of February, but I will not put any undue stress on myself, it will happen, and it will happen soon.
So until next week...I hope to gain nothing but knowledge and lose nothing but weight.
4 comments:
I can guess the meaning of the picture! :)
You rock girlie! Keep goin'!--Lisa
Maybe instead of thinking of yourself as "thin", try thinking of yourself as healthier, someone who takes care of herself, someone who makes good choices when it comes to food.
If scrawny actresses in Hollywood struggle with "thin", I think the rest of us shouldn't have to deal with that word!
And keep patting yourself on the back for the weight you've lost so far!
Rhonda, I totally understand your struggle with your new idenity and look. I have been there before and it takes a while to get used to your new looks and the comments you will be getting. Just know that you are beautiful in the first place so it can only get better. Your new hair do is one big change for you. Just keep on keeping on. You're doing great.
Post a Comment