What is it about starting over?

Well, I did not post a blog last week, and it seems I have a lot to say this week. I did not go to weigh in last week, it is the first time I missed getting weighed since I started my diet. I had a severe migraine last week that took almost the entire week to get over.

So, here I am, and the most I can say is that I am depressed right now. I am not sure that there is any one thing I can attribute it to, it just is what it is. I lost my wallet last week and while it was returned back to me, it was returned without any of the money or credit cards. It was my own fault for losing it and I am glad that I got it back but man it really bites that I lost so much money. Fortunately I have had a couple people help me out and that helps but this is going to be a tough month because I had just enough to cover what was lost and there is no extra money, but in most cases there really isn't much extra anyways. Are you tired of my pity party that I am throwing for myself? Well, I am almost over it, but wait there's more. I had the migraine, my illnesses are getting in the way and I lost ALL motivation for dieting for about two weeks now.

This past Monday was weigh in and I gained 5 1/2 pounds. There are no excuses except that I was lazy and didn't follow.

We are having problems with our TOPS group, as to not getting the support we need from our chapter leader and that makes things rather difficult on all of us, so we decided we were going to dis ban from the group. Why pay money to an organization that will not give us the help or support that we need? This was not a rash decision made on our part, we did take steps to get communication started with our chapter leader but to no avail. Anyways, personally, I hate the political crap all this brings. Our group is going to stay together and keep doing what we are doing so all is not lost, it is just we won't receive recognition from our chosen organization.

Not a big deal, if I want to pursue this in any other fashion, I have proof about the weight I have been losing.

So, we are starting over. I have to lose my 10 percent body weight all over again. The 41 pounds I had lost while it is good for my overall health; is starting over, at least with this group.

I think this is a good thing because it has motivated some of the members that hadn't been there before and now because they are motivated I am too again.

I am back on track this week and though it is hard it is still happening. I went off my diet for two weeks, which doesn't seem that long but man it is hard trying to get back into the swing of things. I went to the gym last night for my water class and they (the ones running the show) cancelled the class because the water was too cold, and my sister was already there waiting for me and the water temp was 79 degrees. That didn't sound cold to me, let me be the first one to tell you if you didn't already know, it is cold. We managed to stay in the water for 40 minutes and then spent a nice 20 minutes in the steam room. I hear tell that the pool will be fine the next time I go. Let's hope.

Well, since I am starting over on a new but familiar path let me leave you with this quote by Brian Tracy "No one lives long enough to learn everything they need to learn starting from scratch. To be successful, we absolutely, positively have to find people who have already paid the price to learn the things that we need to learn to achieve our goals. "

Until next week...