What am I doing?

I have decided to have bariatric surgery.  First off let me start by saying that I'm not choosing the easy way out.  This is so hard and there are so many things I have to do before iam even accepted.  

In January I decided it was time to follow through with WLS (weight loss surgery) and I would follow it no matter where it takes me.  In January of 2014 I went to a Weight Loss Seminar.  After that I had to fill out an application to be seen.  I went to my 1st meeting on February 19 and I talked to my program coordinator who told me what I would need to do to qualify for the surgery.  They took a battery of tests and then sent me to see a dietician.  The dietican wants me to lose 19 pounds in six months, stop drinking carbonated beverages, eat slowly, take small bites, eat 6 mini meal a day.  There was so much to take in that first day.  This is the day that is the beginning of the rest of my new life.  I have to see my primary care physician once a month for the official weigh in.  My first weigh in has been a great one.  I've lost 16.8 pounds my first month.  

I have to see a psychologist who has to give me the final okay to move towards surgery.  When I went to see him the main thing I got out of it is to not binge eat.

I have had to see a cardiologist who sent me for a stress test and echocardiogram.  I passed both tests.  

I have had to see a pulmonary doctor and have a lung function test.  I am still waiting in results.  

I have had to have an endoscopy and the found problems so I was sent in for an upper GI.  The tests came back okay for that.

So far I am healthy enough to have the surgery.  

Now back to the psychologist, he wants me going to education classes which is something I can't afford.  I live 2 1/2 hours from the hospital, the classes were going to have to be paid for out of pocket.  I live on a very limited income.  There is no extra money for anything.  So, they said I can see a dietican in Zanesville and have counseling with my counselor who had WLS and was three years out.  Everything is looking up for me.

It seems that this all sounds easy, right?  Wrong...Besides these appointments I have kegs throw in all the other appointments I have.  My doctor, my optimalogist, my neurologist, my rheumatologist, my dermatologist, my psychiatrist (who is different from the WLS psychologist) and my counselor.  

There was a day a couple weeks ago that I had a meltdown.  I was confusing dr appt times and dates.  I had a different appointment everyday of the week.  I was done, I felt it just wasn't worth it.  That only lasted a day and then my mom suggested I blog my experience.  So here it is.

I will be writing more and might have more than one entry on the same say but I have different topics to talk about.